November 29, 2023

I've been meaning to write another personal update on here for a while and since the month is almost over, I figured I should motivate myself to get it done now. I don't feel as if I have a wellspring of insight to share so it might end up being fairly brief.

Looking back on my last post, I was feeling stuck creatively and generally down about my mental sluggishness. Since then, I've managed to get this website put together into a presentable state and shared around to my various online places. It feels good to accomplish an attainable personal goal like this, in some small way it feels like a weight has been lifted off my back. It was also nice to hear some kind words about this creative undertaking, a source of validation that makes me feel like I'm not just spinning my wheels on a time-consuming project like this.

As far as the mental fogginess goes, it's hard to say if I'm really "better" or just improving. I'm doing my best to maintain healthy habits that keep me afloat, but otherwise I just have to learn to listen to my body when I'm feeling lethargic and take some time to rest and recharge. I know all of this stuff sounds pretty basic, but it's been a legitimate daily struggle for me this year and sometimes it feels like there's no end in sight. There are many days when getting myself to just think of something interesting to say can be an uphill battle.

I managed to get my health insurance coverage squared away for the next year, or however long they decide I need healthcare, so I'll probably be talking to the doctor about my various minor ailments soon. I had to push off my next dentist appointment until next year, but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel when it comes to fixing my teeth.

I'm getting a new computer monitor in the mail tomorrow, an early Christmas present that I'm really looking forward to! I'm curious to see how much a 1440p 165hz display will revolutionize my computer time. I've always been behind the curve when it comes to technology, so this kind of step forward will be pretty significant for me.

Thanksgiving came and went fairly peacefully. I only had a couple of dinners to attend this year and the time was spent with close family members, so mission accomplished I guess. One thing I'm thankful for is that I don't really have to deal with the interpersonal tumult that is all too common in this age of constant connectivity. Of course, the holidays aren't over. I'll soon have Christmas/New Years build-up anxiety to deal with, but it's not here just yet.

A lot of small things in my life are turning a corner in a positive way. I suppose I'm just left to wonder what's next. Life is never going to be a constant flow of positive or negative progress. Sometimes it would be beneficial for me to just pause at a certain juncture and take stock of the things I have that bring me joy.